sooo everyday i realize something new! so i realized how much my friends truly do mean to me... well last night i was at work and one of my ex-best friends mother called me and well couldnt get a hold of me and called my mom. well my mom calls me and tells me that Ashley Payne had been in a car wreck! well me and ashley have not talked in like 6 months b/c my EXboyfriend and her boyfriend did not get along...its truly sad that two guys could come between us..but n e wayz as if hearing that she had been in a wreck my mom continues to tell me that Tony ((ashleys boyfriend)) who at one time was like a big brother to me! he was always there to talk to me and listen to me when no one else was! well she tells me that he was thrown out of tha car and had broken his neck! this truly broke my heart i had no idea what to do besides sit there in complete silence! so i got off the phone with my mom called Ashleys mom to see where they were at..and well this morning i went to ashleys work and talk'd to her,...b/c like i said we've disliked each other for tha past 6 months! and after she got off of work i went with her to the hospital to visit Tony. It was weird being there after not talkin to n e of them for a long time..and then it was even harder b/c tony cant move his neck..he has a halo and has to where it for 3 months! and 5 screws screwed into his head and you can see them cuz they hang out! it was the hardest thing for me to see. it bothers me so much that i let the tinyest things come between my friend ships! why does something like this have to be the cause of us all being friends again! why do i have to let little things ruin my friendship! i feel like the biggest jerk right now...but i just want every one to keep my friends in your prayers even if you do not know them! b/c the last thing i want is to loose another friend,...especially to death..he is a quarter of an inch from being paralized! being only 19 yrs old! ill update when i have more information...but PLEASE keep him in your prayers cause he deserves to be able to go on with his life!

         Thank you

soo..things have definately brightened bak up for me! i am in a confusing perdicament..but i think i have figured something out..so i take bak say'n that ALL guys are jerks b/c there not..there are a few good ones out there..*((just hard to find))* lol but i have been hanging out with my friends lately! i got to see one of my favorite people in the whole world..this guy named Derek..he is oh so sweet..and he finally came bak from Texas and is staying here now! and i have also been hangin with my *step* uncle..Riley alot and his handsome friend Adam...last night me and Derek went and saw tha movie JARHEAD and it was pretty good.and it was just awesome being with him..a REAL man..lol and then i took him to his house and came home and went to sleep! then today me and Derek went to Nashville and went to Hickory Hollow! that was fun..had to hold him back cuz he almost got into a fight..lol.. SCARY let me tell you..and then we came bak to town and i went to Camino Reall with my boy Skylar..had fun with him..((spit coke all over him lol..SORRY)) and then i went over to Rileys house and we all went to Chili's...((me riley his mom and dad..and some of our other cousins..lol)) and we had a good time there! My cousin Ghee..he told us he wasnt a virgin..lol..he meant a VEGETARIAN...hahaha...hes only !!10!! and then me and Riley rent'd some movies and went to his house and ADAM came over..geez he is so good lookin..lol..and then i came home around 1:00 and i call'd Derek and we talk'd for a while..so i am going to bed now..cuz i gotta go shop'n with my mom and get Riley a present..his birthday was yesterday..and he is tha big 18 WHOOP WHOOP go him..and so thats about it! i am gunna go now..TTYL

TO THE GiRLSz. FR0M A GUY
Don't assume that guys won't care where you are, because we do.It makes us feel secure to know that our girlfriends aren't off flirting w/ guys we've never heard of.Also, don't talk about your ex-boyfriends.We never have, nor never will respect/like them.Nor, do we want to hear about them.When you do, you're asking your boyfriend to be jealous.You're asking your boyfriend to lose trust.On that, don't hump everything that walks into the room.We don't care if you talk to other guys.We don't care if you're "friends" with other guys.But, when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute /stunning, we freaking mean it.Don't tell us we're wrong.We'll stop trying to convince you.The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.Yeah, you can quote me.Don't be mad when we hold the door open.Smile, and say "thank you".Let us pay for you.Don't "feel bad".We enjoy doing it.It's expected.Smile and say - everybody together now..."thank you".Kiss us when noone's watching.If you kiss us when you know nobody's looking we'll be more impressed.You don't have to get dressed up for us.If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have, put on every kind of make-up you own.We like you for WHO you are not WHAT you are.Don't flirt with guys when we're not around.We'll find out.Trust me.We have eyes everywhere.And when we find out, we're pissed.Not nessecarily with the guy/s you flirted with, more-so with you.Don't take everything we say seriously.Sarcasm is a beautiful thing.See the beauty in it.Don't get angry easily.Stop using magazines/media as your bible.Don't talk about how hot "Tom Cruise" or "Brad Pitt" is in front of us.It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.Whatever happened to the word "handsome"? Why does everything have to be "hot/sexy".I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with a "hey handsome" instead of a "hey baby, stud, cutie, sexy" whatever you can think of.Claiming girls or guys to be "hot" shows immaturity.Girls, I cannot stress this enough, if you aren't being treated right be a guy, don't wait for him to change.Ditch his sorry, disgrace-to-the-male-population ass, and find someone who will treat you with utter respect. Someone who will honor your morals.Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest..
((SORRY BRITTANY I HAD TO STEAL THIS))

hey guys hope ya'll are all do'n good...i havent really done much lately! saturday i hung with my girl ashley sewell...we really didnt do shit..then sunday my boy walter call'd me and i aint talk'd to him in FOREVER..and so then i met him at tha mall and we went over to walmart and got him some things and then he took me bak to my car! it was good see'n him cuz we aint talk'd in a LONG ass time..and then i went and got tiffany..and we drove around for a while! went and got dip'n in dot's and they were oh so good! and we sat there for a WHILE and talk'd and then i took her home..and she got sik like 3 times on tha way home so i had to stop and let her puke..lol..on tha side of tha road..and then i went over to eddie harrisles house and talk'd to him for a minute..and then took him up to hooters and took my happy ass home..i was so tired! and then monday i died my hair brown again..and it look'd really good..but i want'd to put some blonde in it! so last night Riley highlighted it for me...but i dont kno for sure yet if i like it! i havent got'n to fix it up or n e thang..im not used to tha blonde..cuz i havent had it in FOREVER! everyone told me not to do it..but oh well! so thats pretty much it! life is get'n alot better!!! so i am FINALLY over him..i dont need a man to be happy n e more..b/c luckily i have tha greatest freinds and family in tha world! but i am gunna go now..cuz i am sleepy still! so gewd night everyone!!! Kiss Kiss